So I think I’ve started 3 different blogs and who knows how many times I’ve thought about it, yet again here I am, typing my thoughts out on a computer then whizzing them off into cyberspace. Some things about me that may or may not be relevant to my blogging:
I’ve come to the conclusion that life sucks sometimes, and not just a little bit, but a whole freakin’ lot, and it doesn’t matter what we do, where we go, or how much we try to ignore it, but life will always find a way to bite us in the ass. I’ve also come to the conclusion that you really do have to take care of yourself, because if you wait for someone else to do it you will surely grow old and die, or die from starvation because you are to damn lazy to get up and feed yourself.
Friends, hmmmm…they are amazing and I have some good ones, some are girls and some are guys and it doesn’t matter to me what sex you are, because if I like you and we get along, and enjoy each other’s company, then I’ll count you as a friend and spend time with you, unfortunately not everyone looks at it that way but that’s just too f@cking bad! my life, my friends, get over yourself and your insecurities already!
Getting older SUCKS!!! but I think I look pretty damn good! My joints may creak a little bit and I may not jump out of bed quite as quick as I used to but that’s to be expected. I still smile and laugh a lot, love to explore and go places I’m not supposed to to take pictures, workout on a regular basis and enjoy doing and trying things that a lot of people wouldn’t consider. In short, I try to take care of the total package, mentally, physically and emotionally and I think I do a pretty good job of it.
I cuss, alot. I do try to censor myself but I’m telling you, it’s not always easy, I get upset, someone makes me mad or I’m just having a bad day and the words tend to fly, and sometimes those words are strung together in very creative and colorful sentences that would make a sailor blush. I am trying to be more careful because not everyone enjoys hearing me come up with new and creative ways to use words, but sometimes it is pretty funny, especially when your son calls you out on it with the line “mom, vocabulary!”.
Tattoos, love ’em, I have a bunch and may decide to get more, husband isn’t to happy about that but he’s coping, they’re like potato chips, after one you can’t stop. Some people roll their eyes and some people think I’m some sort of druggie, thug girl playing nice but I really am a good person, my tattoos don’t define me, so don’t judge me by my ink, but if you do and choose not to get to know me then your loss, not mine.
I’m married, been for over 15 years and it’s no walk in the park! we get along for the most part, some days are better than others. We have issues, we work through them when we can, around them when possible. I’m outgoing, he’s not, I’m into energy medicine like reiki, EFT, Aura and chakra balancing and he thinks I’m a complete freak sometimes when it comes to that. I love different things like tattoos, scuba diving, flea markets, motorcycles, sitting on a rock in a mountain river reading a book and he is more the one tattoo, hates water and water related sports, buying not shopping, reading in a chair type of person. How are we still together? not sure, will we always be together? again not sure, why? because life ultimately does what it wants and I can’t promise anything, I tried living in the future once, so to speak and it didn’t work, I lost a lot of good friends because I spent so much time trying to plan ahead and worrying about the what ifs that I couldn’t slow down. I was so worried about stuff that hadn’t even happened that I was destroying myself and not allowing myself to enjoy the simple things. This time around I will enjoy life more, take pictures, get tattoos, ride a motorcycle, walk on the beach at midnight. I’ll try different things and if my husband wants to be there and enjoy these things with me that is great, if not then that’s fine too, your call, not mine, I refuse to make your decisions and dictate your life path for you, that’s why it’s your life .
We have a son that seems a decent mix of both of us so that’s a good thing, he’s pretty laid back and accepting of most things, has a good imagination and enough common sense to know when to leave things as they are versus changing them or challenging me on something. He’s smart, and he is my life, I tolerate a lot of things, I can be very patient, but you mess with my son and I will hunt you down, beat you to a pulp, then light your ass on fire, let you burn, and walk away without a second glance.
I love photography, am I good at it? I must be pretty decent because I’ve had multiple gallery shows, several purchases, had my photography published in an online newspaper, have photography that been used by the internationally known Punk Band Patriot for one of their CDs which has been released,( my picture is the band picture and I still get compliments on it) as well as having photographed several weddings, family portraits, head shots for local actors, college graduations and have had permanent collections hanging in two businesses (business are now gone so the pictures were taken down); But again I love photography, and when I get discouraged, I remind myself that I started doing photography not to become “famous”, but because it gives me a chance to get out and explore places and see things that maybe I wouldn’t normally see because I’m in such a hurry and forget to slow down. If I have my heart in my photography and don’t just go out and hurriedly snap some random shots then I find I’m happier with the end result and more excited to put them out for public view.
Wow, lots of stuff for a first post, but good things and now you know a little about me, what I’m like. Future posts will be an equal mix of happy, sad, whiny, rants, and just whatever may be on my mind. I will not promise that there will be daily posts, there may not be. But I will make a promise that I will try to post at least once a week. It’s kinda an outlet for me to vent and put on virtual paper what’s on my mind at that particular moment. I won’t censor these posts so some days you may find cuss words peppered liberally throughout my posts or things maybe you wish you hadn’t read, tmi. Consider this last paragraph my disclaimer, read this blog at your own risk, but come along for the ride if you wish!